i never thought that you'd ask such a thing. what happened to the nice old you? you strucked me with one question that i think that you should know that it'd hurt someone's feeling. what hurts even more was when you asked me, you smiled. its as if what we have, in this case, what i still hold on to, is nothing. rubbish. trash. bullshit and all sorts of shits. what happened to you? i so appreciate you more than a friend and this is what you give in return? that was very thoughtful of you. well, i couldnt say this right straight to your face cause i know you wont feel a thing. you'd more or less say, im sorry, i didnt know that it'd hurt you. i just cant believe what just happened )': does it mean anything to you?? it doesnt now. i'll just stay low. your life will be perfect without me being around you like always. i miss you so much. i miss the old you. i never want you to change alot. we used to be so eh-i-dont-know in certain things, and i miss that. but now, i am still like that and you've changed. you became so mature now. i used to be in that place, do you remember that? dont you miss being a bimbo? i miss you being one. a good bimbo that is. and just so you know, im not the only one that feels this way. we miss you alot.

have a nice life there with others. i love you.