awesome week!

12th - HAPPY BIRTHDAY ZUL! went out for sungkai at wecan with suz, zirah, fatin and fate. met 5D 08, as they were having their reunion. ada aimi, sam and nisaaaa :D hahaa watched the ugly truth at 7-ish with them jee, el and zura. fuuun!!

13th - ke kubur with the 104's. veeeeery tired but fuun, again.

15th - super fun!! :D well, yeah heeehehe. bad start but happy ending. hahaha went out for sungkai again with the katok-ians at ahan thai. watched the ugly truth lagi with adib. hehe thank god ada yanyan, atleast i know her. since everyone dari katok, me and khairol saja yg md, macam awkward. not for khairol though. and ada zool, pai and shahrul. and akmal ofcourse. sadly yus cannot make it ): yeaaa, it was a great night. met lots of people likeee rashdan, azim, kamal, merule, syam, fii, tijah and whoeverr. my guy next door pun adaa :p haha thank you adib for everything (: hmmm aand HAPPY BIRTHDAY ASHRAF HAZIQ! :D

16th - went to jee's place to bake cheese cake cupcake. it was a success for us, but not for jee's family. it was nyaman juaa. oh well haha. we made it with lots of loove. they just cant feel it haha apakan. planning kan study group but ya know, it didnt happen at all! sungkai sana so again, fun fuun :D azhar was soooooooooooo dreamy. we did our hair. siuk lah!! :D


17th - which is today, went out jua lagii. gila, kana marah eh. three days straight wah jalan saja :p hahaha i was invited, so i come lah. HAPPY BIRTHDAY RASHDAN HANIEEF! sungkai arah mcD, well thank god ada seats! twelve of us, all former smja except me and fate. haha oh and syam! siuk lah and as usual, annoying. kana bully saja -.- sama, finally i met HANIF AND LYN!!! aaaah ive been waiting for a long timee. haha hanif im sorry about your headset aah, its not with me. masa i took it off, still ada the black thingy. didnt know where it went after that :\ sorry berabis. also, soas 5asci2, i think, they had their reunion tadi and ada si nazrin!! hahaha apakan.


okay im soooo tired. raya nda lagi lama. wehuu! so full. alright, night night everyone :)

hold on to YOUR words cause talk is CHEAP! ):

my day started of well, then nda well then it ended smoothly, very smooth. i dont have any exams today so it was a bit relaxing. but lots of homeworks though. around 830, started to feel so sad about something. it went on and on until 3pm. eseh, specific. hahaha and then i went to katok for a while after school, to return iffah's notes.

balik terus tertidur for 15minutes. rizal's text woke me up. heh. and thenn yadayada. last minute kana bagitau, sungkai arah nenek where the fun begins. hahhaha especially after sungkai, time lepak lepak, hahhah panat lah. i always enjoy that moment where babah punya sibs semua bekumpul and start to cerita cerita. hahhaha but yet, we cant just let out everything. i mean, we have to tapis dulu so that nda jadi victim. hahhaha :p for me and mimi, no eye contact, no physical and mental contact and never say anything that you think is not right. hahhaa. bahaya buii.

najwan was so yeeeeeh-bari-kan-di-cubit. he was so cute tadi. he wants me, yay?! hahaha :D we spent our time together on the lantai.... hmmm. hahhaa silly. bah eh so tired today. just finished watching zack and cody with pai. hahaha london is the stupidest girl in history. banar. shes so ntah eh. bari sasak wah, tapi cali jua kalau diliat. hahahha i miss arwin. hahha stupid. alright, tomorrow ke kubur, wehuu. batah sudah nda ziarah kubur. chem 2 on saturdaaaaay, like OMG! hahhahahaha baru ku ingat. tadi masa geo, we talked about terrestrial LWR. haha LWR is long wave radiation. so sir asked apa shortform ani if in text messages. i said, lower. hahahhahah. nda pulang cali. but cali lah. lol. haha

till then, i love this song, ONE TIME by JUSTIN BIEBER. thank you NYRA for making me so in love. ahaha so angaaau uwee. night :D

ugh i so dont need this right now ): like how the heck am i suppose to change it? she wont understand what ive been through. i cant just come up to her and tell her what happened. she'll probably kill me. yeah, over. haha but come on, why cant i have new friends? no one can tell me with whom i must be with. ugggh im so so kusut about this i feel like i wanna punch something. hmm, puasa. sabar. like whaaat? gila eh ):

so yeah, today i had my chemistry paper one. it was veeeery oh god. yeah. the time was short and the questions were soo i dont know! easy? ew. aaah im so messed up eh! )': feel like ending everything. well no. hmm ): maths ada class wah, ada homeworks lagi. wuuu. then gp, thank god nada. tadi was puding's last day. he'll be leaving us soon ): boooring! then chemistry we discussed this mcq paper, few questions ada arah chemistry 1. nicee :D after that, geography. i didnt concentrate much cause i was busy with chem. sir was being so idk lah tadi. and wardhy got really offended. i can see it dude, dont try to hide it. hahha after geo, off to auditorium, had a short conversation with khairol about things. hahahaha which made me angau. i dont know why. so tebalik eh. hahha. okay okay. and then, stayed till 2 with el and nas. nas sent us home pasal nada orang mau ambil si el. haha nda kana guna sudah. apakan. haaha kidding. went to mcD to buy el's mcdeluxe. orang baru baruan kan nda puasa. hahhaha suka wa ya. gaga.

dirumahnya, webcam with fate and saw ezra my bebeh. heeehe. comel eh anak atu. at 4, balik, well ke mall sekajap then balik. adib called. i got scolded. i dont know whyy. i dont find it salah hmmm! yeah. aand so im still moody and i got even moody-er. gaaaaah! stupid bad day.

waaaaaah, boring lo my story.
hahaha
night.

im trying to stick to apik's word,"santai". yes, im trying my best to santai here. had one heck of a week. yes. i tried to make it up to you but you didnt try to make it up to me, as always. in the end, im the one to blame, yet you ignored my words. i begged, you just stood there, reading it, not replying it. like aaaah you think what i did was easy? if it was, i wont still be here, trying to straight things up. i wont be like so desperate to ugh! whats the point of me saying all these when you just dont give a damn about it!

again, im still trying to let go of this one thing, a person, a feeling. its really hard, and ive been doing this for the past three months. i just cant seem to understand.. sigh. and again, problems kept coming to me like im that strong to deal with it. huh. i wonder why its me. so im taking things slowly here. i dont know where to start and i dont even know if i should start all over again. i cant get over it, i cant get over you and i dont want to. no no! i have to get over you!! yes, i must!

stupid stupid me. then theres this thing that is so confusing and theres this other thing that is so, aah-sekadar-jua-eh. macam macam lah. im glad i have my friends around. i know i can do this. i dont need all these right now. i'll deal with it after AS. but im afraid that it'll be too late. seeeee! once i have the confidence, something can blew it just like that. bummer.

oh well, its life. today sungkai at tua's, najwan was very adorable. there was this baby girl, named dania or was it nadia? i dont know. as soon as she saw najwan, she screamed. hahaha thats the way baby girls react when they saw hot baby boys :p hahaha kali lah. hot wah si najwan atu. tepakai banar ku. haha -.- yesterday, i went to katok lagi. jumpa yus :D her biiiiiirthday. eiiiiighteen :p haha



okay aku kusut balik. daaaaaaaaaaaaaaaarn!
goodnight.