im trying to stick to apik's word,"santai". yes, im trying my best to santai here. had one heck of a week. yes. i tried to make it up to you but you didnt try to make it up to me, as always. in the end, im the one to blame, yet you ignored my words. i begged, you just stood there, reading it, not replying it. like aaaah you think what i did was easy? if it was, i wont still be here, trying to straight things up. i wont be like so desperate to ugh! whats the point of me saying all these when you just dont give a damn about it!

again, im still trying to let go of this one thing, a person, a feeling. its really hard, and ive been doing this for the past three months. i just cant seem to understand.. sigh. and again, problems kept coming to me like im that strong to deal with it. huh. i wonder why its me. so im taking things slowly here. i dont know where to start and i dont even know if i should start all over again. i cant get over it, i cant get over you and i dont want to. no no! i have to get over you!! yes, i must!

stupid stupid me. then theres this thing that is so confusing and theres this other thing that is so, aah-sekadar-jua-eh. macam macam lah. im glad i have my friends around. i know i can do this. i dont need all these right now. i'll deal with it after AS. but im afraid that it'll be too late. seeeee! once i have the confidence, something can blew it just like that. bummer.

oh well, its life. today sungkai at tua's, najwan was very adorable. there was this baby girl, named dania or was it nadia? i dont know. as soon as she saw najwan, she screamed. hahaha thats the way baby girls react when they saw hot baby boys :p hahaha kali lah. hot wah si najwan atu. tepakai banar ku. haha -.- yesterday, i went to katok lagi. jumpa yus :D her biiiiiirthday. eiiiiighteen :p haha



okay aku kusut balik. daaaaaaaaaaaaaaaarn!
goodnight.