cause then and there
the wind in your hair
heaven was jealous to merely look fair against you

i miss a lot of people right now but i can surely say that at this time, 7:06pm, i miss hanif and shahrul. haha. picture above is azhar. cute ah? hmmmm :)

pictures on the 19th. sorry again, to keep someone waiting. haha

i never thought that you'd ask such a thing. what happened to the nice old you? you strucked me with one question that i think that you should know that it'd hurt someone's feeling. what hurts even more was when you asked me, you smiled. its as if what we have, in this case, what i still hold on to, is nothing. rubbish. trash. bullshit and all sorts of shits. what happened to you? i so appreciate you more than a friend and this is what you give in return? that was very thoughtful of you. well, i couldnt say this right straight to your face cause i know you wont feel a thing. you'd more or less say, im sorry, i didnt know that it'd hurt you. i just cant believe what just happened )': does it mean anything to you?? it doesnt now. i'll just stay low. your life will be perfect without me being around you like always. i miss you so much. i miss the old you. i never want you to change alot. we used to be so eh-i-dont-know in certain things, and i miss that. but now, i am still like that and you've changed. you became so mature now. i used to be in that place, do you remember that? dont you miss being a bimbo? i miss you being one. a good bimbo that is. and just so you know, im not the only one that feels this way. we miss you alot.

have a nice life there with others. i love you.

a month is a long time

a year is even longer
i miss having you around
it always keeps me stronger

now im weak again. i dont know what i did to deserve this. but finally, things are now making sense. there is more than meets the eye, i would say. i thought of horrible things when i saw you. but after lastnight, i've never been this grateful before. thank you for still excepting me. i dont know what to say. i am so happy to hear you say hi. i miss that. its been so long. i think my wish is coming true. im speechless. i wanted to share this happiness but sigh, its to awkward to let it out. i dont ever expect this to happen. im glad it did :')

hey you. today is monday. im fasting, so does fate. and we were so dry in and out. haha. an opportunity came just now. azim wanted to pay his debts :p but sadly i cant eat haha. azim, if youre reading this, your debts are still on. miss having you in geography class. do you know that seven of them left us? they left md for technical. aqil, fatin, zulfikri, mimi and nadia. liyana went to nursing college. its now quiet, very quiet. hmm :)

i had lots of things to say lastnight but i cant quite remember what. i ordered mcD for sungkai later :p mom asked me what i wanted. she said, "anything you want", so thats like, yaey? ahaha. oh, about this fasting thing, zura was totally funny tadi. i was loud, and she came from the back and tried to shove keropok pisang into my mouth. ahahaha thank god i think fast. kalau nda paedah tu ku puasa. haha youre so funny zura. you remember that time i asked you to switch off the plug? instead you switched on both plugs. ahaha. cali eh.

sigh... missing those old days. loving those old friends. i love you all. old and new. i think im going to sign off. im really getting drier. haha. alright, take care. dont mess with me. apan. oh, i told syazwi that he smell during maths. guess what he replied? haha he said, you suck. spontaneously. i guess i really suck :p have a wonderful day :)

wait seminute! happy belated birthday to pat(25/7) and sukainah(26/7)

boo! haha finally im updating. i did save into draft but i dont know. i just feel like typing. this keyboard is so cool! :D hahaha. so wahsup?

happy birthday Hajah Nur Syazana Amani Hj Su'ut! seventeen todaay :) aww. and also happy belated birthday to Pg Amal Najwana(23/7) and Nur Amizatul Kamila(22/7) :) aah. what should i say? i dont know where to start actually. i forgot how to post. its been a while since i wrote an essay, so its a bit awkward to write one on this blog. hhehe. happy belated birthday to zeerah too (13/7).

i think im going to talk about our day on the 19th. it was fun, thank god. full of laughter, pain and moments of not giving up. there were also moments where the victims(especially girls and women) were thrown into the pool. me, i was one of the victim. i landed on my left hand. the crime maker was si jul and uda masli. it was quite funny when si jul entered the bouncer and everyone screamed their lungs out and ran away. really! its as if hes a real trouble maker or something. haha. the never gave up moments were funny too! haha we knew it when we watched the video dad recorded. bu ajah was the "star". ahaha. she threw the ball over and over and over again to the net but she scored only once. but before she could do that, she fell down step by step while trying to get the ball. ahahahaha i know its not right to laugh about it but it was really funny. haha. i'll upload some pictures ofcourse. soon. since i left my camera at home. hee.

school has been great too. i have geography mpr test tomorrow on radiation and i havent read a single thing. the topic is just not interesting. next monday will be chemistry mpr test on mechanism, alkanes, alkenes and isomerism. yeah. at first she gave us three topics but i dont know how it became four. seems like my grades will be low ): miss ewana told us she'll be leaving md to further her studies yesterday ): we were all sad as she's like the coolest teacher. oh well ):

uhm lets update you all about my boyfriends. HAHA, i wish. najwan is still the first. im not sure who'll come in second place. ezra al-amin, fate's nephew. cuuute! ): and azhar, jee's nephew pun cuuuute! ): bah. i'll end this post by saying, STOP DISTURBING ME YOU MORON! and i dont gave a damn about you. oh i just dislike you!

p/s : friends and "friends", i miss you guys ):

as i bleed my brain out to show how hard reaction mechanisms really is!!

i feel like saying all the bad words that i know just to describe how miserable my situation is right now. im sitting infront of this table full of chemistry papers and textbooks and aaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaah! this topic is fucking crazy! i need at least a week to understand and really soak my soul into this topic wah! but before i could do that, she had already booked tomorrow for the test!! macam, shiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiii..! then i have energetics test jua tomorrow. since i missed it last tuesday due to the shit. oh my goooooooooood. durang cakap energetics payah. let alone mechanisms. lapas tu combine with isomerism. baieeee baie. sandi wah two diffcult topics in a day. she was like, "okay tomorrow you have two tests". wtf! time ps lagi tu kana suruhhhh. ayooo ): huh. i just have to deal with this. DA! like i have a choice. nda ku sekulah eh. hahaha makin banyak pending tests haha. buduh buduh. bah glad you know how terrible my situation is. what did i do to deserve this punishment? haha emo. shit ehhhh. bah bye! oh before that, happy birthday puding :D hehe.

i have approximately 30 minutes to blog this. hello. i havent been around my blog for a while. as you all know, the school reopened sudah. for me, i was given two days off school due to this shit. i was fine yesterday. i was MORE fine the day before yesterday heeeeheee :p anyway, skip that. i went to school yesterday. everything was fine. my check up and all. except for my nose. it was a bit stuffy but no matter. went back home at noon since i dont have class. suddenly i felt weak like my body system just shut down. didnt tell my parents though cause i didnt want them to freak out like, "eh makan ubat, panadol, those liquid thing with the -ine name". yeah. so i slept the whole afternoon thinking that i didnt have enough sleep. when i woke up around 6, i was still weak. nenek suprised me by asking me to makan panadol pasal aku selesma. i was shocked! didnt tell them anything and they knew! at first i thought my friends called my mom telling i wasnt well in school. ahaha but neah, it wasnt a big deal.

i refused to go to school the next day cause i know my friends will blame me for attending, or worse, they might not talk to me. hahaha but i decided to because i have tests on chemistry. i hate re-doing my tests alone with the teacher wah. so i just came lah to school. my parents told me to fake my runny nose(which dad referred as runaway nose -.-") and to walk healthy-ly, which i did. i went to the screening area looking all confident. to make sure that the teachers wont ask how am i doing twice. i had my temperature checked and it was 38+. i was about to go when the prefect grabbed my hand and checked my temperature once more. it was still 38. its not that high, is it? she brought me to sir affendy. with his 'super-power-gadget-which-blew-my-cover' thermometer, he checked my temperature AGAIN. it was 37.8. he didnt let me go. aaaaaaah kacau. then he asked me to fill this form. he said that the school is sending me back home as a precaution because of my not slightly high temperature. the first thing that came across my my mind was, "damn! test cemana??!" ahahahha believe it or not, that was actually the first time i have ever cared about my test. sighhh. so i filled the form and went back home. then went to the hospital arah ong sum ping. it was packed with students. in their uniforms. most of them were from smja. we waited for 3 hours just to see the doctor. whathell kali. jumpa the doctor less than 5 mins saja. the service disana nada. macam we didnt do anything while waiting. aaah shit lah. lapar lagi and my head was barat. people coughing everywhere. very bad daaay.

tomorrow, maths, they'll start on a new topic. probability, and i'll miss that!! and chemistry on mechanism. kana marah ni pasal nda sekulah. sheesh man. bari malas eh. now my panas naik bebalik. get well soon nad ): miss that guy. he smelled so hmmmm :)