HAPPY BIRTHDAY AFIQ!!
my guy next door :D
HAHA love you bro

you rock

Harder Than You Know - Escape The Fate

You said this could only get better
There´s no rush cause we have each other
You said this would last forever
But now I doubt if I was your only lover

Are we just lost in time?
I wonder if your love's the same
Cause I´m not over you

Baby, don´t talk to me
I´m trying to let go
Not loving you is harder than you know
Cause girl you´re driving me so crazy

How can I miss you if you never would stay?
If you need time, I guess I´ll go away
Inside me now there´s only heartache and pain
So where's the fire?
You´ve become the rain

Are we just lost in time?
I wonder if your love's the same
Cause I´m not over you

Baby, don´t talk to me
I´m trying to let go
Not loving you is harder than you know
Girl you´re driving me so crazy

And if you don´t want me then
I guess I´ll have to go
Not loving you is harder than you know

Yea

So I´ll make the call
And I´ll leave today
I´m gonna miss you cause I love you baby
And I´ll make the call
I´m leaving today
And leaving always drives me crazy

Leaving always drives me crazy

Baby, don´t talk to me
I´m trying to let go
Not loving you is harder than you know

Yea

Baby, don´t talk to me
I´m trying to let go
Not loving you is harder than you know
It´s good you´re driving me so crazy

And if you don´t want me then
I guess I´ll have to go
Not loving you is harder than you know
Girl you´re driving me so crazy

Baby, don´t talk to me
I´m trying to let go
Not loving is harder than you know
Girl you´re driving me so crazy

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sigh, i dont want karma to happen! who does? ):

yea its late. i cant sleep. dont know why. so i decided to visit my blog. its dead! hurrah. so i want to update it. and tadaa! here is me! haha -.-

i just want to go to sleep so wont have a sleepy start tomorrow morning. i talk talk about today lah. woke up at 630, jalan at 720, arrived school at 727, screened the test(heh?) aand went straight to room 022 and do my math homework. riing.. (by that time, nda pulang bell atu) apakan lame. mr flynn went in, took our attendance/dence and asked er siapa namanya tu, kami panggil si Haji, to read the doa. rahmat was as usual, late! went in with his wide smile because he made it. mr flynn asked someone else already. tsk. understand what me type? no? okay. so me continue. rushed in slow motion(cana kan tu?) to math class, learned new topic, homeworks banyak. next was gp class, sat in groups. mine is the negative one. we have to defend boys. like i really HAVE TO! tried to convince sarah to switch members but i failed. we were so blank. i dont know why boys are more better than girls in schools. yeah. hit the break, and chemistry class! WUPEE :D hehe. we borrowed room 121 because our lab was ntah. got my organic chem test paper. scored 22% only!! another U. theen we discussed the answers and turned out to be so so EASY ah the paper. siao. after chem, geo. nada interesting things happened. last but not least, PS! went to cr 2, sadly mine and jee's name nada so we skipped. kamal still ignores me!! and hes starting to layan fate sudah. HEH! ): balik and liat transformers AGAIN! lol. that was like the 20th time kali. siuk wah eh! haha apakan.

sungkai luar, at ahan thai. full! and ada this bruneian actress cakap, 'ORANG KAYA PUN BEUTANG KALIAH!' hahahaha mama marah pasal aku ketawakan, padahal nda cali. well it was cali! i wasnt the only one who was laughing. kali went here and there, balik rumah, buat homework, sneezed, buat homework, sneezed. aaah *sniffs. alright. you is boring reading blog this? damn, it worked. i bore you!

bah goodnight. oh tadi di ahan thai ada handsome kid. gila, balik balik aunty liat alai. HAHA. aand please, forgive me if something happens. things that can change one's life or heart or mind. not doing it intentionally. just trying to settle things down. I MISS YOU MY DEAR FRIENDS ): excluding YOU!

i love najwan hakimin.

today...
the day i've been waiting for...
my baby boy turns two!! :D

MOHD NAJWAN HAKIMIN

my sugar, my soul, my LOVE! hahaha weird. HAPPY BIRTHDAY! aww i really wanted to go to your house tadi but no transport. i miss you so much najwan! hehehe. i dont know what to get for your present. teddy bear? you've already got thousands of them! even bigger than you. baju? aaah, possible. chocolates? no. haha money? too young. a phone? too small. how about my heart? AWWW!!! hahahaha okay okay serious. i'll buy you something nanti ah bui. how about a bicycle? lol. kecil bah badan itu. hih. aiwoveyouuuuuuu!

also i found out that KAMAL HILMIE's birthday is today. i know he doesnt want people to blab out about it. seriously, nda ya mau orang tau. take just now for example. he said that he wont go out during break or lunch, and he did. so we went searching for him arah chemistry lab. we found him! HAAHAHA the hilarious part was when suz sang the birthday song...

suz : haaaaaappy birthday kamaaal...
kamal : *run towards the back door*
all of us : oii kamal! oii!
kamal : *still running like woody on his horse*

AHHAHAHAHAAH!! adaka ya lari. bangang kami anak atu eh. it was really funny. hahahhaha so yeah, happy birthday kamal. thank you for the treat yesterday. i went out sort of like celebrating his birthday. we watched aliens in the attic. three stars lah. cali ah that one scene. tapi aku saja kecalian ): the rest macam bangang berabis kenapa aku ketawa. sigh.. im like the queen of 'left the session'. berapa kali sudah kana left out ah kalau aku becerita. taie. haha so yesterday was fun, except for some of the moments when the word comes in handy. when azim bali that thing arah mcD. when rashdan sang that song. aaaah annoying amat. haha.

alright, thats it. tomorrow ada gp presentation. then on thursday ada geo test. chem test someday this week. haaaaah thank you teachers!

HAVE A NICE LIFE THERE!

i miss you )':

omg :'D hahaha. i went to katok this afternoon with jee and weeeeeeeee :D i met my lovely not-so-young girls!! :D im so so sooo happy to see them! aaaah, yus havent changed! i can still hear her laughter dari luar. awww i miss that ): i met fatin, syaza and iffah too :D siuk eeeh! they grew more beautiful than ever. iffah masih nda balance ahahaha. syaza is getting thinner, what happened? but i love your eyes babe. droool. rayrayray :p hahhaha fatin is still the same, only now, her specs tukar. nda lagi frame-less. lawaaaa!

i also met jimjim, pai and shahrul. oh and zool. and and some former stprians and cigu juraaaaai :D hehe. zool was really annoying tadi, more or less like rashdan -.- banaaar! oh tadi wah cali hahahaha. rashdan asked me a question :

rashdan : nad, apa benda yg paling handsome?
me : err, rashdan?
rashdan : bukan wah. benda wa benda.
me : emm...
suz : gambar rashdan -.-
rashdan : *laughing with his annoying face*

ahahhaha see how lame he can be? torture tu kalau layan ia. yatah zool macam ia tadi tapi ani macam abit horny. ahahha pacah banar anak atu. him and akmal is not a perfect match i tell you. sekali si zool lame, ia buat spendat pakai rubber band. then jadikannya mask tia apa. hyper lah ia tadi. calii hahha. shahrul was eheeh :p hahaha pai, as usual, louder than ever. i can hear him laugh across the dining hall. ahaha.

okay, so yeah, i wasnt familiar with katok's surrounding so i kept seeing md people around. i saw this one guy, dari siring macam afiq. and there was this guy, dari siring macam mustafa, ada yg macam kamal dari belakang. oh oh! and ada jua yg macam haq! HHAHAHAHA. wth kali. cali wah. i can tell that jee was annoyed by me. hahaa. hoping to see you girls soon. i miss you alreadyy ):

i would also like to thanked azim for the pizza last monday. thanks also for the free teasing part. kamal and rashdan joined. okay lah. 17 slices left. muahaha :D and we just had our mpr chemistry test and )': i forgot to revise on group II ): i know nothing about the carbonates like heeeeck. maths probability yesterday pun macam, eh taaaie. i got 28 out of 45. atleast. hmm. i think thats all. i never wanted this to happen but it just did. so just keep it low and act normal alright? please. i dont want anything to happen between us and that would be soooo bad if it did.

faza, if you're reading this, we missed you alot!!!

hey my kinder joy guy, i hope you know who you are. looking back i realise it was always there just never spoken. i tried my best to let go of you, but i dont want to (: obvious? yeah, im still making a fool of myself here.

cause then and there
the wind in your hair
heaven was jealous to merely look fair against you

i miss a lot of people right now but i can surely say that at this time, 7:06pm, i miss hanif and shahrul. haha. picture above is azhar. cute ah? hmmmm :)

pictures on the 19th. sorry again, to keep someone waiting. haha

i never thought that you'd ask such a thing. what happened to the nice old you? you strucked me with one question that i think that you should know that it'd hurt someone's feeling. what hurts even more was when you asked me, you smiled. its as if what we have, in this case, what i still hold on to, is nothing. rubbish. trash. bullshit and all sorts of shits. what happened to you? i so appreciate you more than a friend and this is what you give in return? that was very thoughtful of you. well, i couldnt say this right straight to your face cause i know you wont feel a thing. you'd more or less say, im sorry, i didnt know that it'd hurt you. i just cant believe what just happened )': does it mean anything to you?? it doesnt now. i'll just stay low. your life will be perfect without me being around you like always. i miss you so much. i miss the old you. i never want you to change alot. we used to be so eh-i-dont-know in certain things, and i miss that. but now, i am still like that and you've changed. you became so mature now. i used to be in that place, do you remember that? dont you miss being a bimbo? i miss you being one. a good bimbo that is. and just so you know, im not the only one that feels this way. we miss you alot.

have a nice life there with others. i love you.

a month is a long time

a year is even longer
i miss having you around
it always keeps me stronger

now im weak again. i dont know what i did to deserve this. but finally, things are now making sense. there is more than meets the eye, i would say. i thought of horrible things when i saw you. but after lastnight, i've never been this grateful before. thank you for still excepting me. i dont know what to say. i am so happy to hear you say hi. i miss that. its been so long. i think my wish is coming true. im speechless. i wanted to share this happiness but sigh, its to awkward to let it out. i dont ever expect this to happen. im glad it did :')

hey you. today is monday. im fasting, so does fate. and we were so dry in and out. haha. an opportunity came just now. azim wanted to pay his debts :p but sadly i cant eat haha. azim, if youre reading this, your debts are still on. miss having you in geography class. do you know that seven of them left us? they left md for technical. aqil, fatin, zulfikri, mimi and nadia. liyana went to nursing college. its now quiet, very quiet. hmm :)

i had lots of things to say lastnight but i cant quite remember what. i ordered mcD for sungkai later :p mom asked me what i wanted. she said, "anything you want", so thats like, yaey? ahaha. oh, about this fasting thing, zura was totally funny tadi. i was loud, and she came from the back and tried to shove keropok pisang into my mouth. ahahaha thank god i think fast. kalau nda paedah tu ku puasa. haha youre so funny zura. you remember that time i asked you to switch off the plug? instead you switched on both plugs. ahaha. cali eh.

sigh... missing those old days. loving those old friends. i love you all. old and new. i think im going to sign off. im really getting drier. haha. alright, take care. dont mess with me. apan. oh, i told syazwi that he smell during maths. guess what he replied? haha he said, you suck. spontaneously. i guess i really suck :p have a wonderful day :)

wait seminute! happy belated birthday to pat(25/7) and sukainah(26/7)

boo! haha finally im updating. i did save into draft but i dont know. i just feel like typing. this keyboard is so cool! :D hahaha. so wahsup?

happy birthday Hajah Nur Syazana Amani Hj Su'ut! seventeen todaay :) aww. and also happy belated birthday to Pg Amal Najwana(23/7) and Nur Amizatul Kamila(22/7) :) aah. what should i say? i dont know where to start actually. i forgot how to post. its been a while since i wrote an essay, so its a bit awkward to write one on this blog. hhehe. happy belated birthday to zeerah too (13/7).

i think im going to talk about our day on the 19th. it was fun, thank god. full of laughter, pain and moments of not giving up. there were also moments where the victims(especially girls and women) were thrown into the pool. me, i was one of the victim. i landed on my left hand. the crime maker was si jul and uda masli. it was quite funny when si jul entered the bouncer and everyone screamed their lungs out and ran away. really! its as if hes a real trouble maker or something. haha. the never gave up moments were funny too! haha we knew it when we watched the video dad recorded. bu ajah was the "star". ahaha. she threw the ball over and over and over again to the net but she scored only once. but before she could do that, she fell down step by step while trying to get the ball. ahahahaha i know its not right to laugh about it but it was really funny. haha. i'll upload some pictures ofcourse. soon. since i left my camera at home. hee.

school has been great too. i have geography mpr test tomorrow on radiation and i havent read a single thing. the topic is just not interesting. next monday will be chemistry mpr test on mechanism, alkanes, alkenes and isomerism. yeah. at first she gave us three topics but i dont know how it became four. seems like my grades will be low ): miss ewana told us she'll be leaving md to further her studies yesterday ): we were all sad as she's like the coolest teacher. oh well ):

uhm lets update you all about my boyfriends. HAHA, i wish. najwan is still the first. im not sure who'll come in second place. ezra al-amin, fate's nephew. cuuute! ): and azhar, jee's nephew pun cuuuute! ): bah. i'll end this post by saying, STOP DISTURBING ME YOU MORON! and i dont gave a damn about you. oh i just dislike you!

p/s : friends and "friends", i miss you guys ):

as i bleed my brain out to show how hard reaction mechanisms really is!!

i feel like saying all the bad words that i know just to describe how miserable my situation is right now. im sitting infront of this table full of chemistry papers and textbooks and aaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaah! this topic is fucking crazy! i need at least a week to understand and really soak my soul into this topic wah! but before i could do that, she had already booked tomorrow for the test!! macam, shiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiii..! then i have energetics test jua tomorrow. since i missed it last tuesday due to the shit. oh my goooooooooood. durang cakap energetics payah. let alone mechanisms. lapas tu combine with isomerism. baieeee baie. sandi wah two diffcult topics in a day. she was like, "okay tomorrow you have two tests". wtf! time ps lagi tu kana suruhhhh. ayooo ): huh. i just have to deal with this. DA! like i have a choice. nda ku sekulah eh. hahaha makin banyak pending tests haha. buduh buduh. bah glad you know how terrible my situation is. what did i do to deserve this punishment? haha emo. shit ehhhh. bah bye! oh before that, happy birthday puding :D hehe.

i have approximately 30 minutes to blog this. hello. i havent been around my blog for a while. as you all know, the school reopened sudah. for me, i was given two days off school due to this shit. i was fine yesterday. i was MORE fine the day before yesterday heeeeheee :p anyway, skip that. i went to school yesterday. everything was fine. my check up and all. except for my nose. it was a bit stuffy but no matter. went back home at noon since i dont have class. suddenly i felt weak like my body system just shut down. didnt tell my parents though cause i didnt want them to freak out like, "eh makan ubat, panadol, those liquid thing with the -ine name". yeah. so i slept the whole afternoon thinking that i didnt have enough sleep. when i woke up around 6, i was still weak. nenek suprised me by asking me to makan panadol pasal aku selesma. i was shocked! didnt tell them anything and they knew! at first i thought my friends called my mom telling i wasnt well in school. ahaha but neah, it wasnt a big deal.

i refused to go to school the next day cause i know my friends will blame me for attending, or worse, they might not talk to me. hahaha but i decided to because i have tests on chemistry. i hate re-doing my tests alone with the teacher wah. so i just came lah to school. my parents told me to fake my runny nose(which dad referred as runaway nose -.-") and to walk healthy-ly, which i did. i went to the screening area looking all confident. to make sure that the teachers wont ask how am i doing twice. i had my temperature checked and it was 38+. i was about to go when the prefect grabbed my hand and checked my temperature once more. it was still 38. its not that high, is it? she brought me to sir affendy. with his 'super-power-gadget-which-blew-my-cover' thermometer, he checked my temperature AGAIN. it was 37.8. he didnt let me go. aaaaaaah kacau. then he asked me to fill this form. he said that the school is sending me back home as a precaution because of my not slightly high temperature. the first thing that came across my my mind was, "damn! test cemana??!" ahahahha believe it or not, that was actually the first time i have ever cared about my test. sighhh. so i filled the form and went back home. then went to the hospital arah ong sum ping. it was packed with students. in their uniforms. most of them were from smja. we waited for 3 hours just to see the doctor. whathell kali. jumpa the doctor less than 5 mins saja. the service disana nada. macam we didnt do anything while waiting. aaah shit lah. lapar lagi and my head was barat. people coughing everywhere. very bad daaay.

tomorrow, maths, they'll start on a new topic. probability, and i'll miss that!! and chemistry on mechanism. kana marah ni pasal nda sekulah. sheesh man. bari malas eh. now my panas naik bebalik. get well soon nad ): miss that guy. he smelled so hmmmm :)

oh god, this better works! you "males" are lucky you dont have to deal with this painful twisting stomach-ache. i cant sleep! this is bad! although its holiday. one more heck of a week. i can only stay at home. what benefit can that bring? well, i'd probably be as healthy as an apple -.-"

im perioding. is there such word? whatever. ive been moody the whole day yesterday. my siblings asked for my opinion on what they were wearing and i yelled at them. which was stupid becaaaause, i shouldnt! then my mom was very angry at me because she said something and i didnt reply which i did but she couldnt here me say, 'au'. so she was mad than ever and i was, uhm not that suprised on what she said. anyway, lastnight's episode on House was kinda hilarious. the patient was really honest about Taub's nose. he said that his nose is big. ahahaha. and he said, 'yeah, it is pretty big'. nevermind.

back to why i can only stay at home. the hmm, H1N1 influenza A swine flu selesma khinzir selesma babi thing is spreading outside. moment of unsocializing ourselves. i guess babi's generation is getting wider(im seriously sarcastinating). so what do we do for living? eat, sleep, work, study, wearing face-masks, checking temperature, stay at home, dont do social activities if possible and yeah, HOMEWORKS! do you know that the teachers are working while we're having this holiday? and do you know that they will, for sure, give us TONNES OF HOMEWORKS as soon as school reopens? i can barely finish mine in two weeks. honestly, its not finished yet. except for the blank parts that i really dont know how to do them. deep sigh. goodluck to all of us. and i bet my teacher will give us double tests in a week.

THIS IS NOT WORKING! i still cant sleep ): im not even sleepy yet. hey, how many days do we count after our period until the next period? is it 14 or 28 days? im having a quite sensational day in mid-july and i dont want this "girl thang" to ruin my only chance to enjoy july! *big question mark* my tummy is killing me! )': and its nearly two in the morning! and i wanna watch ice age 3 so badly but hoooow?? there are just no reasons for my mom to let me go out to a place where many people breathe! ): and im hungry! i didnt eat anything that'll energize me yesterday due to this frigging mean aching monstery stomach pain!!

oh i talked alot ey? sorry. you can leave now :) im ending this post anyway. but before that, i just want the whole world(well atleast a number of people) know that I REALLY MISS THOSE TWO HORRIBLE CREATURES! i wont mention names cause i'd die in a milisecond. why i miss you both eventhough what you did was just cruel? because you both were like angels to me(before you did that cruel thing ofcourse). aah, i feel much better. i hope you'll come across this paragraph.

TAKE CARE PEOPLE. families, cousins, friends, neighbours, strangers, enemies, buggers, bitches, etc. HEAL THE WORLD.

I LOVE HIM!

watch this movie now! or tomorrow! but not the day after tomorrow! because macam loser tu kamu, since banyak orang sudah liat. muahaha. okay this movie is soooooooo awesome! five shinning blinking stars i would say :D but first of all, i would like to say thank you so much to paii for treating me. if he and kamal didnt force themselves to watch that movie, i'd be called a loser by then too. hahaha. but trust me, its an excellent movie even to those who doesnt like cars-turned-into-some-kind-of-metallic-structured-robots :) so basically the whole day started off with faza's farewell thing at aminah arif's in kiulap. they invited me so yeah, i came. to my surpise, fate couldnt make it. boring ): so does azim, because he had his orientation. i was the only er, former stpri student. it was kinda awkward but yeah, went through it.


the eating session was fun. we had a tournament, a who-rolled-the-most-perfect-ambuyat tournament. zirah ada talent ah. her ambuyat was fat and healthy. mine macam kurus and karing and damit and nipis and aaah it was embarassing. then pai ordered this something-tiaw thing and we divided it into four. lavely. haha. we went to kiulap mall after that, hoping to catch the earliest now showing transformer. but wooow, that movie was fully booked. we got the 430pm show and atupun second front row wah available. but yes, it was worth it (: while waiting for the movie, we went to the arcade hoping we could find a kbox but nada. instead, the guys raced. rashdan and faza and hahahaha never want to ikut durang if durang ada license. banar. hahaha.

okay im stuck. aah, i wanna tell you about the movie. i wanna expose the story. BOOH dont read these next few lines. ahaha kidding. you know there's this hot soldier! like really, well not really. but hes hot! :D i almost cried watching him in his situation. and the main actor, what's his name? i forgot. yeah, he looked a bit like ronaldo in there. but ofcourse ronaldo is waaaaaay hotter than him. heee :D and and speaking of ronaldo, I CANT BELIEVE YOU LEFT MAN U FOR REAL MADRID!!! GRRRR! im furious! im not going to see you play that often. i can only see you play for portugal ): and thats next year! ): and so continue about the movie, the sound effect was very good. duh. my hereos would be the twins. the green and red chevrolet cars. cute ah. hahaha eh you guys better liat lah. its worth your money. in my case, aku kana lanja tadi :p BUT i will watch it again, if kana suruh jalan. this swine flu is very ... uhm i'd advice you guys to stay at home as far as possible (: for our own good. i read today's newspaper and when school reopens, we'll be wearing face-masks. eeeep. girls will look like omg!! hideous? like tudung putih and the mask putih and the baju pun putih. eeeeeee ): and i bet there will be check ups from the ministry of health bladibla and we'll be sticking thermometers in our mouths. ayoooo. not happening. ya allah, lindungi lah kami. amin. my neck is in deep pain! ):

ouh, and congratulations to DPMM FC on winning the apa ni, Singapore League Cup 2009. good job :D i wonder who won tonight. them rash and zirah liat di stadium. haha okay im out. im tired and i loooooooove you z (:

HAPPY BIRTHDAY DADDY!! :D
love you loooooooads, mwah!

once a bitch, always a bitch! hello there :) just got carried away by this movie im watching. its already saturday.. leaving 8 more days til school reopens. bottom line is i have to finish up my homeworks by tomorrow so that next week, i can go out! AMIN! buuut theres something that hold be back.. nenek is uhm.. furious about me going out often. i cant help it. its life... sigh. scratch that bit.

try to eat vanilla ice cream, pour fresh milk and sprinkle milo, chocolate rice and chocolate chips on top of it. add nutella or chocolate syrup and TADAA, heaven! ofcourse it'd be sweet, but satisfying. it'll eventually cheer you up :)

aah, i feel like talking alot right now. hows your holiday? i miss school, believe it or not. i miss my gp class the most. i want jolibee. apakan. all i can think of is food! batah sudah aku nda makan mcd fries! ooo :O jericho rosales ani hot eh. heuheuheu :p omg he pouted! reminds me of najwan. boy, where are you? hows kl? aaah gila imysm! amintah karang ke beribi. i didnt know you balik sudah. eh im talking to myself.

ohh i left my heart somewhere arah mabohai. ahahaha lameee. gila bosan ku eh! kamu behapa kan cuti ani? besides stuffing my ears with songs and blocking my eyes with movies, i do not know what to do!

eh im a n n o y e d wah by this person. i dont know what i did wah sampai ia cematu. annoying banar. aku nda respond pun ia masih annoy aku. i kept thinking how to make this person to stop those annoying things tapi macam jahat banar tia ku. tapi serious eh, really annoying. realise im using the word 'annoying' like many times? that shows that this person is really critically annoying!! i got rid of you so please, go awaay.

my tummy's druming. time to feed her. pai said i have long intestine thats why aku selalu lapar ahahahaha. silly. nyaman ni kalau makan pizza. or fries. wuuuu :D toodles

tears roll down on each of our faces as soon as kamal potong the onions. ahaha. i spent my night with them again, at rashdan's. it was really fun because we were really cooking!! :D that is sure something to be proud of. as you can see, the picture above, that's azim. he made all the pastas lastnight. well, not all but most of them. nyaman :D


kan? haha suz.......... was a great cooker!! really. ia sama zirah lah yg berabis working lastnight. hehe i didnt help much as... ntah. haha datang malas ku. so let the pictures do the talking lah. im blank :)













suz, update me, who won the guessing game??