HAPPY BIRTHDAY AZIM JIMJIM :D
hehe, big guy sudah ni, no more doing this and that stuffs yea? dont be naughty. i know how naughty you can be. so sorry i cant meet you up tadi, but promise, i will. nanad is always here for you, remember that (: love youuu.

ngaleh ku! today im pretty much moody. morning and noon. hmm. and tonight, im loonely. wait, what do you think about this?

"try to be governed by your loves and not your hates"

yeaa. so its better to be thought of as a , rather than open my mouth to remove all doubts. hehe and to me, silences make the real conversations between you and me. not the saying but the never needing to say is what counts.

im stressing out actually with my gp project. oh wait, OUR gp project. i dont know how to elaborate more and our presentation macam alum siap fully and and i dont have that courage to speak up. im a COWARD, so?? my species is a coward jua wah. big deal. eh yaka? au jua. ntah eh. that thing kept blocking my mind, its very upsetting. oh well, its enjoyable at the same time. i didnt get the chance to be one haha buduh. sooo, night!

HAHAHAHAHAHAHAAHAHAHAHHAHA

i have a new nick name wah. i looooove it. its like im one of a kind. hahaha. jarang wah urang panggil aku atu. well i guess now people will call me that. YAYY :D actually aku kusut, as usual. tuuu kenapa tia jauh the distance ah ): ish. im just gonna say few stuffs..

• THANK YOU NAFEES. we had lunch tadi di mcD, together with nyra, jiah and el. nafees belanja ;D nyehee. thank you thank you.
• HAPPY BELATED BIRTHDAY NURIY (:
• and I MISS YOU..........

oh, the tests tadi were very SIAO! weh, this wah, sorry eh. gila. i didnt know it'd be that pissy. you know, the thing i did. enough lah ah. SEEYAH! :)

i realized, it was me all along ): i was the one who damnly did it. sighh, nad nad. things just doesnt seem to get better. today i was down, i still am. about this and that. dont wanna talk about that as ive admitted it myself already. this, is something. something ive been waiting since 14th march. i wanna wanna wanna see you! babah was annoying tadi. he kept asking why. he forced me to tell. yeah, will he let me if i spilled it out? dont think so. yeah, i want to meet you like now! ): badly need to see you. and i love maths. i think. for now lah. but when it comes to vectors, i'll pass out then. geo's getting pretty dusty and boree ing. gp, interesting, a bit. aku minat si algore! chem, as usual. but but bonding is better than ever. i'll be having two tests next monday. what a nice thing to start with. first day of a new week, two tests! first block and before lunch! :\ and i have to hand in the 'worth-25marks' essay by monday jua! haiyooo. and WHERE IS OUR MONITOR?? four days straight man! mr kah was really furious. kidding. you better be sitting on that stool of yours on saturday.

before i forgot, HAPPY BIRTHDAY HIDA. sorry for the short msg. atleast i greeted you.. kan? :)

pick me up! pick me up dear! PLEEEASE? ): oh, there's this equation, 10 + 3 = 13 - 10 = 3. ahaha lame but loving it and loving YOU!

bladiblabla...

> im an expert in Aggravating my problems.
> ive never eaten Zinger burger before.
> im always late for my Registration class.
> im craving for Ideal again.
> i love the song, 'driving myself Insane'.
> i hate Mole stoichiometry.
> i sometimes ask questions Indirectly.
> ive never had a Surgery before.
> i Suck in chemistry.
> i never like Yoghurt.
> im not Over you.
> i love my school Uniform.

and Shane is so cute :p hai im bored and tired. ive watched coming soon already :D hehe the movie was omg-shit-palui-eh kenapa kau masuk lift?!-eye gouging-sssh. apan. well yah that explains everything. there were err 4+2+2+3+2+2+2+2+2+5 of us. haha so if you wanna watch how Chaba died, make sure youre not watching her in cinema 3 (: dont say i didnt warn you.

uncle sarkawi, i miss your son so badly )':

im bloohdy bored and im thinking about certain things and now, im pissed! its like out of nowhere, ive been treated badly. so much for a friend. anywho, i just came back from md. today, superfly vs selingkuh. the match wasnt that firm, well thats what i think. i only watched them for 10 minutes. now im dying to know who won and who scored. uh oh todaay was okay in school. ALHAMDULILAH! :D yeay haha. geography was okay. as usual, sir was being sarcastic all the time. i think i miss fatin. she came late tadi so her seat was taken by nelson. the situation was weird. i cant talk ): no one to talk to. then ps was stressy. the sociology students were too damn stress with their tests. jiah was craaaaper(crazy+hyper).. her physics got her to her highest mentally super extreme 'woooo'. nyra was sick. well, she looked sick and tired. qils was 'omg socio!'. izah was over the moon, she still is. i was waaay mentalized by trigonometry. after break was math. HAHA. syazwi told me that teacher will ask for circular measures' past year paper, which i thought she wont, like ever! but she did and most of the class gave excuses. i have to lie. have to! hahaha i totally havent done it and ron was trying to tell teacher! lucky she didnt quite hear what he said. so three math homeworks to be handed by MONDAY! we got no gp class today. apparently all the english classes were cancelled, BUT teacher left us with an assignment. its a presentation. about md students' rights. well heres one thing im about to present. its our rights to sit wherever, i repeat, WHEREVER we want in the library! getit? and never halau those who didnt make loud noises. god. ive had strike one sudah. that lady got issues. oh and so, during gp, i was in the library, stressing myself with chemistry. i cant answer some questions and it made me go 'eh are you taking chemistry?'. bari malu eh :/ then i have pyro meeting during lunch. chemistry class starts at 1230, until 3! baaaie. but okay lah. bah sasak ku ni. goodnight. i miss you.

good evening everyone :) havent been around for weeks. i realized all blogs are dead. haha so what's up? my days were great. being avoided, controlled and even hated. i just dont know what i did wrong, but yeah, IM S O R R Y. one thing came after another ah. today i just found out about something and sighh. problems yg before before alum lagi settle. which i dont know how to! everytime i tried to set things right, it went uuuugh. im thinking too much am i? i dont know how to avoid myself from thinking about it. anyway, i wanna update you! though you dont want to be updated by me. so? hehe

10th april
first family outing since year 199+! i think. uda damit's, uda besar's and my family went to miri. it was really a last minute plan. semua ikut including grandmum. whiiiich, hmm, kinda stopped all the fun we're having. she joined us just to bali minyak, and she wanted to go home like SOON! huh. we had fun though :D

14th april
HAPPY BIRTHDAY ABDUL AZIM HAJI MOMIN :D

15th april
went to gadong.. i got mcD's balloon :D stayed back at school until 5-ish to watch md galaxy vs superfly's friendly match. superfly won, 0-4. yay? haha then went to beribi, najwan was AMBUNG. like very. yeaaaaaaaaaaaaa, i get it now. hmm

today, 16th april
HAPPY BIRTHDAY ANIQ ZAKWAN, SYAZWI, BAHZI, QILAH AND SHUKRI (:
banyak ehh. oh and this, MAN U MADE IT TO SEMIFINAL! :D who did it? who scored? CRIIIIISTIANO ROOONALDOO! im going to watch the ulangan later to see how he scored. babah kept saying it was WOOOW. hehe

i dont know what to type lagi. oh this, i hope things will get better between us both. it hurts to be in this situation. i just dont get it. and yes, i dont want to cry because of it. IT HURTS!

who needs air by the classic crime

i long to taste adventure like the nature of the sea,
always moving, always hiding all the creatures from beneath.
singing silent songs of sadness my heart waits for its chance,
to dance upon the ashes of my burned up little plans.

and i stand alone before the night.
my nakedness is so clear in the glow of the moonlight.
life is old but so short.
we are young, we want more.

i'm drowning, but i don't care,
'cause when you got what i got, what i got
who needs air?
i don't need air.

my addiction to danger like the rush of the sea,
like a wave on the rocks the lessons crash down on me.
i don't need to prove the world to you only to myself.
so step back and look away as i dive into the swell.

i'm drowning, but i don't care,
'cause when you got what i got, what i got
who needs air?

so take me down to the river like a little child,
and take my hand and tell me it's okay to be wild.
i never knew the world until i saw through your eyes,
i never knew myself until i ripped off my disguise
(i ripped off my disguise).

i'm drowning, but i don't care,
'cause when you got what i got, what i got
who needs air?

i'm drowning, but i don't care,
'cause when you got what i got, what i got
who needs air?
(i have come to the realization that life is more than what i have accomplished.
and life is more then the realization that we have accomplished nothing at all.)

i'm drowning, but i don't care,
'cause when you got what i got, what i got
i don't need air
(true success is so selfless so drown in the lyrics
of your life and give up the air that you breathe.
you don't need anything. you don't need anything.)

i don't need air

ameera nafeesa, back off! hes mine!! MINE! ahahaha :p

nada wa. ahaha kelaie sama kanak kanak yg nda tau aku, apadeey. so washup ma nigga? im amal nadiah. im messed up, still. im sick of this and that. im tired and i miss loooooooooooooooads of you's!! you you you you youuuuu you you you you! horight. ive been busy lately with ka siti's wedding. happy new couple wedding marry marry to siti and yamin. 5th of april, everything ended hotly smooth. hotly smooth means, fweaaaakin hot in a smooth way. getit? getit? anyway, yea.. thats it. and and andddd i have THREE new BOYFRIENDS! and my list goes on with HAIRI, IJAN and KHALID! i dont know khalid yet since he didnt want me sariatu, but hes cute, so hes IN! haha HAIRI is like the second najwan! why second? pasal najwan is unbeatable!! NAJWAN'S EVERYTHING! even ronaldo cant beat him.. ahaha. HAIRI IS SO CUTE! he likes me! like he want me wah. ia nda mau ka milah and ka naj. AWW jua tu kan? yatah kambang kuuu. thats why im telling this to the whole world. apa? jarang jua ku sho op. bukan macam urang atu :p

aaah yatah kan. on that day, sunday, si boy, dani, danish, ashraff and adek was there! SEMUA ANI AKU PUNYA NI! MINE!! peduli apa ku tamak. kau nda pernah tamak kan? nah! :p si boy nda berapa mau aku. ia sibuk kan makanan nya. dani, nda ku telayan. maklum lah, ada si hairi ah, lupa tia ku. aku pun pandai ambung kaliah. WOOO! adek was the hardest to tackle. ambung nya macam baaaaaaie. banar. nda mau kan urang. yatah umpan nya yupi. anu jelly ah. hahhaha apa lagi? apa lagi? oh si hairi ani urang kk. they came here, without adik fikri ): and didi. ahhahahaha :p nad nad hehe.

ka siti

BOY!

DANI!

ADEK!

that girl is not me okay? (:

HAIRI!

machedaaa machedaaaaaa :D
ahaha i love ronaldo! hes hot! hes so hot! hes so talented! hes so aww! hes so grrr! hes so hmmm! hes so dreamy! hes so my godddd! hes so tssss!

man utd 3-2 aston villa
scorers: cristiano ronaldo(2) and macheda.

man utd 2-2 fc porto
scorers: i dont know. haha

i miss you too someoneee :)

"when im with you
i'll make every second count
cause I MISS YOU
whenever youre not around"

i was about to make every second of my time count just now, but i dont know what stopped me from doing it. HAPPY BIRTHDAY FEQAH (: tomorrow is friday, a day which i personally think that it'd be nice to just stay at home and sleep. but yeah, cant do that tomorrow. right now im trying my hardest to fill my sorrow with tears of joy. im still trying.. but yea, wont seem to work. im alone and been left alone. im moody and sarcasted. im sorry to those who i ignored or rolled eyes to. part of me says, 'hey, lets smile and have fun'. another part says, 'no, leave me alone'. so which part? i'll pick the second, obviously. let alone life. im not going to be there with you. unless i can stop myself from doing stupid stuffs. i cried cause of you and you. its stupid wah. really. in the end, im always the one to blame. clueless and miserable. everyones busy. yeaaah, busy. she's busy, he's busy too. she's not being fair... whats the difference kan? they have better social thing than me? oh ya, im lame. i knew that. dont worry, i'll let myself be miserable. im good at it (: on the other hand, im like i dont know to him. my life is great. its exciting.. i think, what im about to do will make his life easier. go have fun. hoping that this doesnt go on.. im tired of crying. every night. its not a joke. im not typing all these so that you'd come up to me. im just your 'uh im bored nad'. sigh.. to whoever it is, i love you still.

im listening to some techno songs from bungsu akai's phone. hes playing it loud. my mom is pacar-ing the women. everyone's smiling and laughing. i found myself sitting alone at the corner, typing all these and badly need to cry. i want to lay myself down. I WANNA SMILE AND LAUGH LIKE YOU ALL DID! its been three days. im always distracted by you during classes. where are you huh? youre having fun while im here, crying myself out. do you even care?? oh, no you dont. its because you know that i'd be okay by myself. and theres also this other thing.. a thing that sigh.. should i even bother to work it out? i did. i really tried to. but it starts to fall apart.

im sick sick sick of all this!! )':
i guess im ending all these nonsenses.

"what can i do
say its true
or everything that matters breaks in two
say its true
i'll never ask for anyone but you"

"if you need anything
just say the word i mean anything
rest assure if you start to doze
and i'll tuck you in
plant my lips where your necklaces close"

"take my hand and tell me its okay to be wild"

"tonight i've fallen and i cant get up
i need your loving hands to come and pick me up
and every night i miss you i can just look up
and know the stars are holding you holding you holding you
tonight"

"you never look at me the same
you know its really driving me insane
and i know
without you i cant function no more"

"i wish i could here your voice
dont leave me alone in this bed
i wish i could touch you once more
dont leave me alone in this bed"

"teach me every step
every dip and every turn"

"i want you to know
with everything i wont let this go
these words are my heart and soul
i'll hold on to this moment you know
as i bleed my heart out to show
and i wont let go"

"run baby run dont ever look back
they'll tear us apart if you give them the chance
dont sell your heart dont say we're not meant to be
run baby run forever will be
you and me"

those lyrics meant lot to me... yeaah (: